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2024-08-08
Project: TWI002
Journal
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The more I think about my anxiety, I wonder how much is tied up in moving pods
at work. I have this Impostor Syndrome thing where I assume I've f-ed up and
the axe is about to fall. So rather than be excited by the prospect of moving
teams and new opportunities, I'm stuck thinking I did something wrong and this
movement is punishment. Honestly, RAM Pod was probably not the best fit
for me, but I liked all the people it didn't make any sense to rock the boat.
But CRM Pod gives me an opportunity to try something new, and I should
embrace that.
- Note taken on
Last night was a pretty restless night of sleep. I have a lot of anxiety right
now around our financial picture (lots of debt, income that doesn't look to
grow), and how I'm handling work right now. Asa and I are travelling to
Grinnell with Sarah just about as soon as we get back from Kings Landing
summer camps, and I haven't actually taken time off work. I am also working
with a team right now that values high collaboration, and they're all in
Pacific time. So it's hard to take afternoons off, which is kinda the optimal
time to hangout with Mary Powell and her family.
I think I need to let that out of my mind for now though. There's not a lot I
can do. And I think a lot of it comes down to how I'm approaching work right
now. I feel like I'm being asked to grow and learn, and I'm reluctant for some
reason. Historically I would have loved this stuff, but right now I just kinda
want to do things the way I've done things in the past. Also, my co-workers
are much younger than me, and the folks I'm working on TWI002 are a lot
younger and very different personalities than I'm used to working with. I
think I need to take stock of where I've come from and the folks I have worked
with who appreciated what I brought to the table.
Tasks
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