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* Monday, 09/18/17

** 10:12 Busy
Today feels busier than I thought it was going to be. Having a standup at 1 p.m. is almost the worst, because you're sort of plodding towards it all morning and can't do anything until after it, but then aftewards soccer comes right up. Need to reframe my thinking so I'm not so stuck with either this or that things to do.

Also, I need to submit my nomination papers today.

** 23:45 Retrospective
A solid day for the most part. I didn't get as much done at Ridecell as I would have liked, but still got some things done. The soccer game went well today, and I managed for the most part to stay in control of myself and help the kids stay positive. I did allow myself a small release when the kids finally scored their first goal of the season, a feat that took a while last year.

Strangely, when I got back from the game I was very hopeful about having some of the baguette I made the other day. But I discovered that Peter had eaten most of it. There was a small heel left, and I was stuck feeling really put out and frustrated by him. He's also just been low energy and sick for the past few days, and he's difficult to be around when he's like that. Mostly because I find it hard to be so uninspired and have trouble empathizing with that mood.

I need to do a better job of reflecting on what's really the matter. I think I was more upset that Peter was eating whatever he wanted, and most of the bread, than that I didn't have it. I'm not totally sure why that hurts so much, but there's always been a bit of saver in me that wants to make sure I get the most out of something. Having almost all the bread eaten as an impulsive snack is not getting the most of out it, at least by my standards.